The Minority Dilemma
Perhaps my political education has never matured. I am merely educated in the field of physical sciences and mathematics. Much has not been said about the political situation that makes up Malaysia, and I woefully remain ignorant of a lot of things. Particularly the ugly side of things.
I chanced upon a book, The Chinese Dilemma, which is actually a supplement to understanding The Malay Dilemma, a book written by Tun Sri Dr Mahathir, the ex-Prime Minister of Malaysia. I find myself in a position where I have much to identify with in the book, yet at the same time, much to contend with. I am after all, neither one of the old Chinese, nor do I find myself assimilated into a society that is Malaysia. How do I describe myself? I find that the best word here to describe myself is that I am a minority.
The word minority is devoid of all cultural and racial prejudices which plague both Malay and Chinese. I am neither, I am nothing, I am a minority. Simply put as that, if one is to divide and divide and divide society, one would always find me on the minority side of things. I am not just a minority of Chinese, I am a minority within the Chinese, and a minority within that, with respects not only to my social standing, but also my education, my views and my experience. I have told a friend once that I am always a minority, and no matter where I go, or what I do, I remain that minority.
What does it meant to be a minority? It means my interests are always last to be considered, and first to be expended. I am the second-class citizen, I am a sub-class of humans, and the words 'equality' and 'justice' and 'freedom' do not apply to me. My rights only extend as far as what others deign fit for me to have, I exist more for the solace of others, I am here as a coalescing force for the majority to exert their collective willpower upon in ensuring their unity, I am the enemy, I am the reminder what could be worse, I am alone, I am nothing.
One of the issues plaguing Malaysia right now is the "brain drain" to first world countries. I don't deny it. Every other intelligent person I know doesn't talk about going back to their homeland to make it a better place. They talk more about making it out there in the huge big world, they go out the door and never look back. I don't deny it is in my heart and on my mind, to ditch the land I was born in a heartbeat for a better chance out there. It all has to do with perception, it all has to do with what I feel I can achieve here.
Am I an unwanted guest in this country? I've always thought about it, that I am a person without a citizenship. I am treated like an alien, even in my own country. Dare I declare that no country deserves my allegiance? Treat me as such, and I shall react as such. I am a reactionary creature, I lack self-motivation, but once the infernal machine grinds its gears, there is no halting the end result. Such is a creature that I am.
I am a displaced soul. I can't call any place home. I belong to no one, I don't owe the world anything and I don't give a damn. I am simply a product of a society, of dysfunctional people. I am nothing more than that. I am tired.
I chanced upon a book, The Chinese Dilemma, which is actually a supplement to understanding The Malay Dilemma, a book written by Tun Sri Dr Mahathir, the ex-Prime Minister of Malaysia. I find myself in a position where I have much to identify with in the book, yet at the same time, much to contend with. I am after all, neither one of the old Chinese, nor do I find myself assimilated into a society that is Malaysia. How do I describe myself? I find that the best word here to describe myself is that I am a minority.
The word minority is devoid of all cultural and racial prejudices which plague both Malay and Chinese. I am neither, I am nothing, I am a minority. Simply put as that, if one is to divide and divide and divide society, one would always find me on the minority side of things. I am not just a minority of Chinese, I am a minority within the Chinese, and a minority within that, with respects not only to my social standing, but also my education, my views and my experience. I have told a friend once that I am always a minority, and no matter where I go, or what I do, I remain that minority.
What does it meant to be a minority? It means my interests are always last to be considered, and first to be expended. I am the second-class citizen, I am a sub-class of humans, and the words 'equality' and 'justice' and 'freedom' do not apply to me. My rights only extend as far as what others deign fit for me to have, I exist more for the solace of others, I am here as a coalescing force for the majority to exert their collective willpower upon in ensuring their unity, I am the enemy, I am the reminder what could be worse, I am alone, I am nothing.
One of the issues plaguing Malaysia right now is the "brain drain" to first world countries. I don't deny it. Every other intelligent person I know doesn't talk about going back to their homeland to make it a better place. They talk more about making it out there in the huge big world, they go out the door and never look back. I don't deny it is in my heart and on my mind, to ditch the land I was born in a heartbeat for a better chance out there. It all has to do with perception, it all has to do with what I feel I can achieve here.
Am I an unwanted guest in this country? I've always thought about it, that I am a person without a citizenship. I am treated like an alien, even in my own country. Dare I declare that no country deserves my allegiance? Treat me as such, and I shall react as such. I am a reactionary creature, I lack self-motivation, but once the infernal machine grinds its gears, there is no halting the end result. Such is a creature that I am.
I am a displaced soul. I can't call any place home. I belong to no one, I don't owe the world anything and I don't give a damn. I am simply a product of a society, of dysfunctional people. I am nothing more than that. I am tired.